By Fumie Yoshida

I suffer from depression. Most people know what depression means, but I think most people don't know what depression feels like. Even patients don't really understand what depression is. It's like walking through a tunnel with no exit, so I also don't know how to live in this situation. I concentrate on finding a cure with my good doctor and counselor. However, I sometimes lose my way.

When I writhe with my bad condition, my friends cheer my by e-mail and say something that makes me comfortable. When I'm in a bad way, the most healing thing is a friend's smile. I feel really relaxed when I see my friend' smiles, and I feel like shedding tears. So, I wrote this song on my guitar.

"smile"

i wanna say only one thing

i wanna say "thank you" for you and you and you and...

i was so stupid, yeah i was

i might disapear if not for you and you and you and...

but i could found my way

it may be a scary way

but i can break the wall now

i can get over my pain

i say i love you all my friends

i say i like you all my friends

i wanna hug you all my friends

ﾔcause, ﾔcause i really need my friends.

why did you help me that day?

why did you help me those weeks?

you were very busy, weren't you?

why, why, why, why...

your smile makes me happy

it's became my power

i didn't know a smile had such a strong power

you told me it without words

i say i love you all my friends

i say i like you all my friends

i wanna hug you all my friends

ﾔcause, ﾔcause I really need my friends.

if i became alone

i never feel lonliness

ﾔcause many smiles are

living in my heart

i say i love you all my friends

i say i like you all my friends

i wanna hug you all my friends

ﾔcause, ﾔcause i really need my friends.

i love you all my friends

i love you all my friends

i feel like, you know,

i can live forever